Not Racing…On Purpose

As most of you know, I am taking this year off from racing. It wasn't an easy decision and I went back and forth with it, until my body finally had enough, and yelled STOP! I am staying away from everything race related this year (well, I'm going to try) because I just need to. …

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Am I Doing This Wrong?

It's funny how quickly self reflection turns into some extreme self criticism. Struggling to take expectations off of oneself is not easy. There is an internal daily struggle: Why can't I figure this out? Why am I so stuck? I'll never figure this out. I'm not capable of *insert thing here*. I'm not smart enough. …

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Facing Myself…Head On

There has been a lot going lately. I can't share all of it, but I will share this: I drove out to the ocean on Saturday to think. I do some of my best thinking by the water. It was cold, but beautiful. The waves. The spotty sunshine. I was taking time to SEE what …

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So Many Things

When I am coming out of a depressive episode, it's like a slow sunrise after an overnight storm. I am never sure how long I'll have before the next descent, so I am soaking in every moment I can. Saving good memories for the next fog filled vortex. I've been running with my BRF Kara …

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Looking Out From The In

It's been a rough go these past few months. Swimming upstream was taking its toll. The daily struggle of getting out of bed was hard, and my life mojo was low. Having a moment in each and every day to sit and be present with myself caused me to face some of my demons head …

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What I am Learning

I started my yoga journey to slowly get my body back to some fluid movement after beating it up for many years with my running. I have been learning a lot, about my body and about myself. I am becoming more present (although on my not so good days this can still be a struggle) …

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It’s Not Always A Choice

I wake up every day and check in with whatever emotion is at the top of the list. I acknowledge it. If I can, I ride it out. I am more willing nowadays to face what I am feeling and accept it. This doesn't work for everyone, and I acknowledge that. I believe that accepting …

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